Grief

This time of the year is always rough for me. Mainly because at the end of the month is the anniversary of my father's passing.  I try to remember the memories not the memories I wish I had. Of him holding Ben, him seeing our wonderful home and the list goes on...

Grief is a strange thing to talk about and everyone talks about it differently. For me I either 1)Cry, just ugly face cry or 2) I don't talk about it
I have to say I have experienced a lot of grief with my family and I can recognize things that help me, maybe they will help you too?

Walks: just get out of the house! I am lucky the weather is nice here in GA
Food: I find comfort in great tasting food, making and eating it
Friends: I went to the park with a friend the other day and it was the best "distraction"
Family: making new memories and remembering to laugh

With Logan gone nights it has been hard to distract myself, but I am beyond blessed to have the memories I have with my Dad, he was a great one!

Dancing

This may sound silly but before Ben was born one thing I look forward to was dancing with him. Not the formal at his wedding kind of dancing (although I do want that) but the silly middle of the kitchen dancing with spoons as microphones kind. When I was pregnant I would always dance just for fun with him and I think he took to it! Lately he has been more and more creative with his dancing and I love to watch him. I used to dance with my Dad I think is a large reason I wanted that for Ben and I...I remember multiple times dancing on his toes across the kitchen floor.

With dancing comes music. I have always loved blaring music in my home I feel like its part of what makes our home ours (that and the ridiculous amount of candles always lit around the house! Smell is a great way to feel warm and cozy in a home). When we came to look at our house for the first time the previous owners had their music on and it gave me goosebumps!

These memories we are making are the ones I love. The random ones that you have to make time for because they make life so great. Between all the laundry, dishes, errands just take a moment, stop, and dance! You won't regret it.

Here is a video of his new moves, he is getting creative! Not just the simple bounce anymore.