I feel like my world is crazy at times with all that is going on. It has calmed down since I finished my last class before my year break to have the girls. I cannot tell you how great it is to not dread papers on weekends. Hello friends, I am now free to mingle :)
Prayer has been something on my mind lately and how to pray continually without disappointment or realizing that maybe there is an answer but it won't be right away. Sometimes I tend to ask for things that seem ridiculous. For example, when I found out I may actually be pregnant I prayed over the test that it be a miracle...a miracle because if I was going to be pregnant again I needed the timing to be right before Logan left the army. I laughed pretty hard when I found out it was twins, after I got over the shock of course.
I have had a lot of emotions with prayer and I am trying to remember it is not my plan, it's God's. That's tough for a planner like me. I am getting there though :)
Just to document what's going on with the pregnancy this past week I kept having contractions, as I usually do after work. However, they wouldn't stop this time so we put Ben to bed, called a friend and headed to labor and delivery. They hooked me up which made me feel ridiculous, I thought one heart monitor was uncomfortable, two is just insane. Then they add the one for the contractions. Well I was having contractions every 5-7 minutes for a little bit but they slowed and weren't as painful then stopped. They did a few more things to test if I would actually be giving birth in the next two weeks (crazy they have a test for that?) then gave me a few options. I declined most and at that point I felt comfortable going home and resting for the next few days. I guess that was a long story for a false alarm, but a reminder that my body cannot handle the usual things I do all the time.
That is the hardest part of pregnancy for me, physically and emotionally not being the same as "normal"
I am looking forward to my baby shower coming up and am so blessed to have a friend that offered to throw one for me! I was and am way too excited. It just feels good to feel appreciated and loved.
Other than pregnancy my beautifully spirited/stubborn two year old son has decided eating is for the birds...mainly living on fruits and hotdogs...just reminding me the things they don't tell you as a sweet pregnant lady for the first time. I somehow knew to sit down for meals for family time but had no idea how much of a battle it would be with a screaming toddler. I did learn this week that Dicks sporting goods store has an awesome Ben-sized track that will wear him out (because he automatically knew to run it!) and result in a great nights sleep. Keeping that one in my back pocket. Well I think that is all for now, hope you all have a blessed week!
